Seeking knowledge of Buddhism

2 11 2007

“Do not go by revelation or tradition, do not go by rumor or the sacred scriptures, do not go by hearsay or mere logic, do not go by bias towards a notion or by another person’s seeming ability and do not go by the idea “He is our teacher”. But when you yourself know that a thing is good, that it is not blamable, that it is praised by the wise and when practiced and observed that it leads to happiness, then follow that thing.”

I agree.

I agree with what I have read.

 Buddhism does not require me to agree with everything, and the teachings of the Buddha I have found I agree with. So I am Buddhist.





We Of The Wooden-Heads

2 11 2007

“Wooden-headedness, the source of self-deception, is a factor that plays a remarkably large role in government. It consists of assessing a situation in terms of preconceived fixed notions while ignoring or rejecting any contrary signs. It is acting according to wish while not allowing oneself to be deflected by the facts.”
Barbara Tuchman, “The March of Folly”

In The March of Folly, Tuchman declares humans “wooden-headed”- biased enough to allow their ‘preconceived notions’ to influence government affairs. She is correct. Man, by nature, is a subjective beast, and he is rarely capable of objectivity save in the most trivial of circumstances. When man is presented with a new fact, his initial- and often only- response is to compare it to each fact he has encountered in his lifetime. If this new idea differs from beliefs he has already subscribed to, he is predisposed to disbelief. If the new idea concurs, then he will add it to the criteria for which he will judge all new information. This seems contrary to what should be; man should become more objective as the consequences of his bias become more dire. The cause for this disparity lies in the simple fact that as a situation’s gravity increases, so too does the weight of the beliefs a man carries.

Though “wooden-headedness… plays a remarkably large role in government”, it is as prevalent in more plebian matters. Witnesses of crimes are not necessarily politicians; but as politicians adhere to “fixed notions”, so too do the men and women sworn to honesty in courts worldwide. In the past, the testimony of these sworn witnesses has been sufficient evidence to convict an individual of a crime. Presently, however, witness testimony is often declared hearsay, even if multiple witnesses testify. This development is largely due to a new unbiased witness- deoxyribonucleic acid. DNA evidence has convicted new criminals, and in turn, has redeemed convicted criminals.  More than two hundred wrongful convictions have been declared in the United States. Of these, seventy five percent were because of eyewitness misidentification. More than one hundred and forty five men and women have paid wages for another’s crimes in their own lifetime and blood. Were they deliberately, maliciously wronged? Unlikely, as witnesses are usually questioned individually and therefore unable to conspire against a suspect. It is rather more likely that the witnesses were guilty themselves- of being human, and thus “wooden-headed”.

The faulty witness is he who testifies according to “preconceived fixed notions while ignoring or rejecting any contrary signs”. The faulty witness sees a suspect as guilty or innocent according to the narrow horse-blinders he has ignorantly donned. The United States Department of Justice released Eyewitness Evidence, A Guide for Law Enforcement, and the foreword by Attorney General Janet Reno admits that “Even the most honest and objective people can make mistakes in recalling and interpreting a witnessed event…” Less honest and objective people make mistakes in recall due to racism, following prior instruction, or clues in the suspect lineup as to whom the police consider their major suspect. Out of 180 cases, roughly 110 cases of witness misidentification resulted in a black American being sent to jail. This could be malicious racism, or more likely, the underlying fear of a person different from oneself. In either case, the misidentification was the result of a “preconceived fixed notion.”

      Granted, some cases of witness identification have been upheld. “Wooden-headedness” is not so steadfast that every man adheres to it. It would be folly to assume that they would. Perhaps there are more convictions of black Americans to draw from in the first place. However, the presence of any eyewitness misidentifications whatsoever proves that the witness has allowed some sort of earlier knowledge to influence their declaration that this suspect is guilty.

      Man looks at the world through glasses tinted the lively shade of his own gray matter. His every decision is made in light of his every previous decision. This is the “wooden-headedness” Tuchman speaks of. It is evident in every circle of human life; from the schoolyard with children forming cliques, to the fields of work dominated by men, to the judicial proceedings convicting innocents, to nations profiling against races in order to prevent terrorism. Each man, woman, and child has the responsibility to remove the glasses that filter out what they dislike; the world is best seen in every color.

  Reno, Janet. “Eyewitness Evidence: A Guide for Law Enforcement.” National Criminal Justice Reference System. 31 OCT 2007. U.S. Department of Justice. 1 Nov 2007 <http://www.ncjrs.gov/pdffiles1/nij/178240.pdf” >.

“The Innocence Project – Understand the Causes: Eyewitness Misidentification.” Innocence Project. 31 OCT 2007. The Innocence Project. 1 Nov 2007 <http://innocenceproject.org/understand/Eyewitness-Misidentification.php>.





nashville

23 09 2007

my uncle is moving 700 miles away.

too bad he’s the only family member i really like, eh?





life has meaning again.

24 07 2007

Now this is rehabilitation.





t-minus 39 hrs

19 07 2007

oh emm eff gee?

my childhood, it is ending.

so many years of my life (so many i can’t count) has been overlaid by the imposing shadow of THE NEXT BOOK.

and in 39 hrs- it will be the receding, doppler-dying shadow and siren call of THE FINAL BOOK.

and you know, fanfics are TOTALLY going to explode in SUCK the moment this book is read. maybe have a week before preteen fuckers are destroying the world with next-gen fics. sigh.





delight

8 07 2007

thank you, Ian!

a fellow named Ian composed a well-written argument to my quote and post from earlier, and totally changed my hard-headed mind, and i’m just delighted! the exchange of information between levelheaded people with different beliefs sends me into an ecstasy of enlightenment.

and the above is said entirely seriously, in that bright happy tone that you emit when you realize the world doesn’t suck.

somewhat.





minutes to midnight

20 05 2007

olivia was right. linkin park feels more angry now… but it’s a good angry. the only thing i dislike is it seems that there’s less amazing strange melody now. but i’m sure i’ll get used to it.





christian pharmacists and satanists

20 05 2007

“allowing pharmacists to withhold the morning after pill for religious beliefs is like allowing satanists to practice human sacrifice.”

both involve one person making a decision for another person,
based on their own religious beliefs,
that has a negative result on that other person.

except- one involves a religion that is more or less government sanctioned- christianity. cuz you know, this great, beautiful country was founded  on GOD and his christian children young whippersnapper!

and the other is admittedly full of fucked up attention seekers wanting to hurt people. but still. religious beliefs.

p.s.- america was founded by lots of criminals, like debtors. the religious folk that came here came to escape having their lives run for them by the english church. but our athiests, agnostics, muslims, buddhists, etc- they have no new world. that means we must make the world free for any religion. and while you’re allowed to choose your religion, you’re still assaulted daily by ‘under god’, ‘in god we trust’, and the idea that your pharmacist may refuse you a pill to purge a few cells.





oh god

17 04 2007

well. i may not have a gag reflex, but when my stomach decides that things are living in it without it’s consent, POOF, there those things go. porcelain throne and all.

funny. i think it was the chick-fil-a. never mind the fact that my parents are fine! they ate bloody chinese food. they’re supposed to be the sick folks. ugghhhhewww.

ithinksheismadatmeandithinkit’sbecauseheandiarecloseagainandfuckfuckFUCK.





as i am

8 04 2007

an agnostic, i do not celebrate easter.
however. i am an agnostic in a christian household. a very christian household.

and as an agnostic teenager in a christian household, i and my friends are the only ones to know that i do not believe in the christian god… actually, that’s a lie. almost everybody i know who has spared more than a few moments to get to know me knows that i’m agnostic. (or atheist, i’ve never actually broached the subject with some people.) my sergeant knows- my stepdad knows- everybody, it seems, except my family.

which makes pretending to celebrate easter an absolute pain in the ass. i mean, it’s nice to know my family believes, and i absolutely love the fact that my brother is christian. i’m cool with christianity, it’s just not for me.

then again, with people like brandon and mr. wag talking to me in their gentle way, it’s not so hard to consider going to church again. as i told brandon today, i have moral issues against the christian god.

you heard it right. conflict of morals. i don’t believe in god simply because not everybody is offered the same opportunity to believe in god as i was. the idea that EVERYBODY has a single chance at knowing god might be true. but if they’ve been raised, say, as an animist- or anything else not ‘right’, then they’re screwed. you can’t change a lifetime of learning with one sermon. and people that are predisposed to not believe should not be condemned to hell. according to the bible as it’s been presented to me, they are.

so i’m an agnostic pretending to be christian, and smiling at the prayers and subtly trying to avoid going to church, and its wearing on me. but i can’t confess, because then very earthly punishments would meet me. i want to retain my freedom, so if pretending to believe in christ keeps me from being forced to church and salvation, then that’s what i’ll do.

and in the meantime, i’ll nibble my chocolate cross and wonder who in their right mind would create something that seems sacrilegious even to my heathen self.