valentine’s

15 02 2007

is not such a terror as i often make it out to be. yes i understand that i am divided and selfish on this issue. i don’t hate valentine’s day, i just get annoyed with the enormous displays of ‘love’. my idea of a beautiful valentine’s gift is a book. or a small thing of chocolate, preferably not in day-glow pink, preferably not in a heart-shaped box, though those aren’t terrible. i just high dislike three pound chocolate hearts. i’d rather have a book… or a box of hot chocolate, if i must be given anything at all.

today i got gummy handcuffs and a kiss. two things with which i am quite well pleased. it’s the thought that makes me glow, not the bloody amount of sucralose you attempt to feed me.

also, though hopefully not meant as a valentine, i recieved an ACU US. Army cap from the recruiters who descended upon our school in the Army ‘Aviation’ van. it was hardly aviationny. but my cap fits quite well and replaces the black one somebody took.

to my friends:
stashia, who i can always speak to, even if i’m not always aware of it- i do indeed love you.
olivia, who understands i and my motives better than i do- i love you.
geneva, whose stupid comments are really rather intelligent and pointed- i love you, too.
alexander, my amazing but disgustingly decent man, i love you.
kameron, the underestimated proving himself in so many ways, i love you. deal with the public.
rachel, who i don’t always understand but normally appreciate, i love you.
jimmy, there through thick and thin, and the most rational guy in my life, i love you.

and to those whom i have not mentioned; nick, renny, twiggy, sarah, k-t, chelsea, james, eddie, hobbes, adam, m’adam, ivy, david, hunt, etcetera; i care about you all and you all hold a positive effect on my life, whether i announce you individually or not.

to my sergeant-
so if i had a dad, i think he would be you. probably have less hair, though, as i’m a stressful child.

and to lady thimbelle and miss twink, and the lord wrench whom i’ve only heard talk of, a flurry of hugs!





snow day

17 01 2007

es frio!

and i was all class a’d up so i could meet southwest representatives && direct them to where they were supposed to be.

oi, vey.





2007

2 01 2007

:)

my new year has been pleasant. ushered it in with a non-bondage night. went over to stashia’s and ate a yummy dinner in which the courses were…

  • ham hammity ham that i actually liked
  • cornbake which is crazy shit but amazing
  • sweet potatoes the only sweet spuds i’ve ever liked!
  • cranberry sauce with real cranberries!
  • gherkins which are godly
  • veggies with ranch sauce!
  • croissants
  • and more hammity ham.
  • and cheesy potatoes!

it were yummy, better than fast food which is what was for dinner at tenn’s house. people in attendance were

  • heathery-mom-person-who-owns-the-place
  • stashiay-it’sherhouseperson
  • isaac & jonas -it’s their house even though they’re annoying
  • isaac & jonas’s papa
  • wesley
  • olivia
  • tenn!

and woulda been geneva if geneva weren’t a bitch who decided not to come. (i know geneva. kidding.)

and so we played lots of egyptian rat screw and abalone and shit. && wesley stayed until six a.m. when everybody started to go to beds. && olivia destroyed wesley’s hand in ers.





christmas

23 12 2006

and i haven’t gotten my best people anything yet.

kt’s party was amazingly awesome, AND i managed to avoid the fight at the end. /cough and i got special time with alexander cough /.

let’s see… walked in wearing my new blouse that mama got me, but i didn’t want to wear it because our parties are always rough so i’d smuggled a shirt with me. i changed shirts and as soon as i get back out there i get dragged into teh wrestling for my lighter which axel took, surprise surprise. speaking of which he never gave it back.

ALEXANDER YOU OWE ME A BIC.

let’s see… in attendance were

KT (our lovely hostess)
Sarah (our lovely ditzy bell)
Rachel (my death and lovar)
Alexander (a.k.a. pyro / axel)
John (or Nym if you so choose)
Nick (who i worship more than before)
Renny (the most awesome girlfriend evar, taken by Nini)
Dano (anime!)
Jacob (emoboy.)
Heather (who i sort of forgot because I fail at life.)

we ‘watched’ lady in the water and step it up. we had coke, popcorn, and hotdogs. we were terrified of the black belt taekwondo guy that is kt’s father, and did typical teenager things, and danced…

and had a generally amazing time.





armistice day

12 11 2006

for those youth that have never been taught what armistice day is (and those elder youth)

armistice day:
the celebration of the cessation of world war one, during the eleventh hour of the eleventh day of the eleventh month, nineteen eighteen.

it was changed to veterans day after wwii.

recognition / rememberance of both with poetry i enjoy.

Dulce Et Decorum Est
Wilfred Owen.

Bent double, like old beggars under sacks,
Knock-kneed, coughing like hags, we cursed through sludge,
Till on the haunting flares we turned our backs
And towards our distant rest began to trudge.
Men marched asleep. Many had lost their boots
But limped on, blood-shod. All went lame; all blind;
Drunk with fatigue; deaf even to the hoots
Of disappointed shells that dropped behind.

GAS! Gas! Quick, boys!– An ecstasy of fumbling,
Fitting the clumsy helmets just in time;
But someone still was yelling out and stumbling
And floundering like a man in fire or lime.–
Dim, through the misty panes and thick green light
As under a green sea, I saw him drowning.

In all my dreams, before my helpless sight,
He plunges at me, guttering, choking, drowning.

If in some smothering dreams you too could pace
Behind the wagon that we flung him in,
And watch the white eyes writhing in his face,
His hanging face, like a devil’s sick of sin;
If you could hear, at every jolt, the blood
Come gargling from the froth-corrupted lungs,
Obscene as cancer, bitter as the cud
Of vile, incurable sores on innocent tongues,–
My friend, you would not tell with such high zest
To children ardent for some desperate glory,
The old Lie: Dulce et decorum est
Pro patria mori.

In Flanders Fields
Lieutenant Colonel John McCrae, MD (1872-1918)
Canadian Army

In Flanders fields the poppies blow
Between the crosses, row on row
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.

We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
Loved and were loved, and now we lie
In Flanders fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
The torch; be yours to hold it high.
If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep, though poppies grow
In Flanders fields.

1916
Motorhead

16 years old when I went to war,
To fight for a land fit for heroes,
God on my side,and a gun in my hand,
Counting my days down to zero,
And I marched and I fought and I bled
And I died & I never did get any older,
But I knew at the time, That a year in the line,
Is a long enough life for a soldier,
We all volunteered,
And we wrote down our names,
And we added two years to our ages,
Eager for life and ahead of the game,
Ready for history’s pages,
And we fought and we brawled
And we whored ’til we stood,
Ten thousand shoulder to shoulder,
A thirst for the Hun,
We were food for the gun,and that’s
What you are when you’re soldiers,
I heard my friend cry,
And he sank to his knees,coughing blood
As he screamed for his mother
And I tell by his, side,
And that’s how we died,
Clinging like kids to each other,
And I lay in the mud
And the guts and the blood,
And I wept as his body grew colder,
And I called for my mother
And she never came,
Though it wasn’t my fault
And I wasn’t to blame,
The day not half over
And ten thousand slain,and now
There’s nobody remembers our names Í
And that’s how it is for a soldier

Ballad of the Green Berets
Fighting soldiers from the sky
Fearless men who jump and die
Men who mean just what they say
The brave men of the Green Beret

Silver wings upon their chest
These are men, America’s best
One hundred men we’ll test today
But only three win the Green Beret

Trained to live, off nature’s land
Trained in combat, hand to hand
Men who fight by night and day
Courage deep, from the Green Beret

Silver wings upon their chest
These are men, America’s best
One hundred men we’ll test today
But only three win the Green Beret

Back at home a young wife waits
Her Green Beret has met his fate
He has died for those oppressed
Leaving her this last request

Put silver wings on my son’s chest
Make him one of America’s best
He’ll be a man they’ll test one day
Have him win the Green Beret

Tommy
by Rudyard Kipling

I went into a public-’ouse to get a pint o’ beer,
The publican ‘e up an’ sez, “We serve no red-coats here.”
The girls be’ind the bar they laughed an’ giggled fit to die,
I outs into the street again an’ to myself sez I:
O it’s Tommy this, an’ Tommy that, an’ “Tommy, go away”;
But it’s “Thank you, Mister Atkins”, when the band begins to play,
The band begins to play, my boys, the band begins to play,
O it’s “Thank you, Mister Atkins”, when the band begins to play.

I went into a theatre as sober as could be,
They gave a drunk civilian room, but ‘adn’t none for me;
They sent me to the gallery or round the music-’alls,
But when it comes to fightin’, Lord! they’ll shove me in the stalls!
For it’s Tommy this, an’ Tommy that, an’ “Tommy, wait outside”;
But it’s “Special train for Atkins” when the trooper’s on the tide,
The troopship’s on the tide, my boys, the troopship’s on the tide,
O it’s “Special train for Atkins” when the trooper’s on the tide.

Yes, makin’ mock o’ uniforms that guard you while you sleep
Is cheaper than them uniforms, an’ they’re starvation cheap;
An’ hustlin’ drunken soldiers when they’re goin’ large a bit
Is five times better business than paradin’ in full kit.
Then it’s Tommy this, an’ Tommy that, an’ “Tommy, ‘ow’s yer soul?”
But it’s “Thin red line of ‘eroes” when the drums begin to roll,
The drums begin to roll, my boys, the drums begin to roll,
O it’s “Thin red line of ‘eroes” when the drums begin to roll.

We aren’t no thin red ‘eroes, nor we aren’t no blackguards too,
But single men in barricks, most remarkable like you;
An’ if sometimes our conduck isn’t all your fancy paints,
Why, single men in barricks don’t grow into plaster saints;
While it’s Tommy this, an’ Tommy that, an’ “Tommy, fall be’ind”,
But it’s “Please to walk in front, sir”, when there’s trouble in the wind,
There’s trouble in the wind, my boys, there’s trouble in the wind,
O it’s “Please to walk in front, sir”, when there’s trouble in the wind.

You talk o’ better food for us, an’ schools, an’ fires, an’ all:
We’ll wait for extry rations if you treat us rational.
Don’t mess about the cook-room slops, but prove it to our face
The Widow’s Uniform is not the soldier-man’s disgrace.
For it’s Tommy this, an’ Tommy that, an’ “Chuck him out, the brute!”
But it’s “Saviour of ‘is country” when the guns begin to shoot;
An’ it’s Tommy this, an’ Tommy that, an’ anything you please;
An’ Tommy ain’t a bloomin’ fool — you bet that Tommy sees!





fangs

30 10 2006

are sexy and i’ve got a pair of tooth-cap fangs from hot topic.

they are very pointy.

i like biting things with them.

tomorrow i can bite people with them.

i’ve already bitten myself with them.

they make funny imprints.

prepare to be bitten.