-yawn-

so mom’s moving to florida, taking evan with her.
i’m not a first sergeant, because i missed part of summer camp- you know, i was unable to breathe, but i was willing to stay. but i was told it’d be okay if i went home.
so every-fucking-freshman that’s done something [except me] has a position.

seriously.

wally got what should have been mine.

on top of this my grandparents are all stressed and freaking, my grand-dad isn’t doing to well on the heart issue, and i’m still spending my entire day doing rotc shit for no reason.

but hey. i love the corps and sgt isn’t at fault.

fucking wally, haven’t seen his pale ass up there EVAR. he’s not even practicing.

what the fuck ever, i just wish i could have one thing- ONE EFFING THING- to make my life better. i was looking forward to rotc being enjoyable, but whatever, i’m not a first sergeant. lucky me, master sergeant.

and in case you think i’m being a whiny bitch: I HAVE THE DAMN RIGHT. i’m ALWAYS there. if anyone had been there more than me- done more than me- i wouldn’t GIVE a damn if they got my position. but for the exception of staff, there is no body. certainly not a dumbass who’s on the “ALL IMPORTANT RIFLE TEAM” and who doesn’t even go to competitions OR football games, or ceremonies.

pyro
chink
mason
brianda
victor or trimble, can’t remember which

ALL got it. they deserve it.

but waldrop doesn’t.

and if it is my grades-

ALEC IS A COMMANDER AND HE FAILED AND WAS KICKED AS A FIRST SERGEANT. CHRISTIAN’S FAILED. VICTOR HAS FAILED.

i hate that everything in my life goes wrong at once and the one thing that might make it better and might make me more motivated at school and shit is denied to me.

and honestly…

if it was something else i’d done, i wish sgt would tell me. jimmy explained it all, but i wish sgt cared efuckingnough to explain.

maybe i did something really awful and wrong and i’m being pompous and i’ve really not done anything for the corps, but i’d really like to know if i was.